Went SGH for my CT scan yesterday…

Did I mention previously was rejected for the scan because of ****** Blah blah blah they were just afraid of ******** but cannot blame them because of the high radiation which is very harmful and so 2 weeks later I’m back…

Anyway regarding the procedure of the scan I think it really scary… totally no idea about it at all thought it nothing much until I went in -_-“ (cold sweat)

Feasting for 4hrs and drink so much water even when I went in… stuff liquid into the **** ahem… and this super super long needle into my hand :( anyway usually people will be plucking in on their fist there but mine on my arm there… special benefit neh wahahahaha…

Due to my tiny miniature vein the water and medicine when were in the midst of inserting into the blood vessel the pressure is a bit too big… the nice doctor give me his hand to squeeze… throughout the whole scan I keep laughing with the nurse, you know laughing will make you feel better when a person is very tense up…

When I’m came out of the room dear got a shock to see the big and long needle on my hand with quite a lot of blood… hohoho… as usual I get special special treatment by him again… hohoho, heng he insist on coming with me…

after the needle being pull out my hand was so swollen and blue black with red red blood vein all comeing out (naughty little girl becoming kelian little girl)... not wanting to move my that poor hand at all... everything was done by him... lalalala

He bring me to shop around making me feel better before we head off for our later dinner cum supper steamboat feast… yum yum

I'm so so happy... i'm a happy bitch!!! oops 8X

don't tell you why i'm happy, just in case someone might curse me because of jealousy...

anyway as usual i'm busy with work, school, shopping, pedicure/manicure and of cos doing xmas gifts... wheeeeeeeeeee... and also was so busy at doing shopping with dear... heehee...

promise will be back with the little pict i have on hand... was so busy that i hardly have time to take picture... meow~~~~

I want I want, I want ALL of them!!!!!!

so so tempted... 'mai xu dang xu sai' concentrate on what i should do right now...

Jia you Jia you Jia Jia you!!

wanted to blog so much and upload my photos but i'm so lazy you see... hee...

Decided to post something EMO today, please don't ask me any question! Thank you so much.

as a happy go lucky aka self centered person overlook a lot of things... to friend i might be good or bad...

but i'm definitely a BAD LOVER!!!

base on my past and current r/s, i'm so sure of myself that it seem like i'm only loving myself and always never consider the feeling of my other half... it make's them suffering in silence just not to hurt my feeling...

how lousy a person like me can be?

1) selfish
2) ignorance
3) self-centered
4) eyes on top of my head
5) not concerning
6) no ear but lots of mouth
7) controlling
8) creating lots of sin and love ones clearing the shit i left behind
9) only think of people letting me down

basically i'm not worthy to anyone... YES no one at all...

how much i hope i can change, which i thought i did change for better after having ULTRA bad temper in my past r/s and causes him to suffer a lot hoping will be a good gf for the next one...

yes i change away my hot temper but i pull in new BAD habits in...

how much apologies i wanted to say but action speak louder than words... WHAT IF i still cannot change... i don't think i will be in any r/s anymore, doesn't wish to bring disaster to them... (but a lousy person like me will only think of myself, isn't it)

thanks everyone for everything... all the love, pampering, and stuff for a ill-brat like me...

need self soul searching

Yeah went night safari with my mom and sister today...

lalala and i drive there :) heehee... but i prefer dears' sis car better oops 8X

anyway it a fun outing with mom and sis although my headache is killing me...

gtg rest more now... will post up the little pict we took today... all memorise are in my mind as the place is too dark for picture and NO FLASH FLASH is allow...

tmr it time to go SGH again... oh ya i never mention that i went for my check up on last monday too... and tmr was the scanning test... *praying hard nothing goes wrong, keeping finger cross* please people don't curse me ah...

little enzo can really brighten up my day esp when i'm feeling so down today... muackz

just some updates of what i did over the weeks... only the days where something special did happen :)

20 Nov'08
my starlight delivery came in the morning after fetching me to work for my surprise breakfast craving from kFC :D yummy yummy...

21 Nov'08
town shopping with him... at first was a great day not to the ending part of the night...

22 Nov'08
went chong pang for dinner with buddy and to cwp to catch a midnight show 'Wild Girl'

24 Nov'08
sis acc me to SGH for my checkup then after waiting for me for so longgggggggg we finally head down to IKEA for yummy dinner and shop around... but we went back empty handed... nth caught our attention...

25 Nov'08
he bring me for supper after my lesson end... too hungry ah... a hungry woman is a sad woman...

28 Nov'08
orchard with vic vic to get our xmas gift for colleague and some close friends... it fun shopping with my dear vic vic... wed then i pei you down again to get that item alright??

then meet up with him at amk for supper again before going down to his friends' dad wake... his friend seem so so unlike him and the more he love the joke the more we can see he is sad...

got my surprise from him that night... although it might not be something exp but it something that i appreciate and love it... thanks

29 Nov'08
went town again after lesson... the worse shopping day i had with him that make me go so totally disappointed with him...

There is so many words in my heart that i wanted to say...

where should i start?? it painful/hurtful... do you ever know that??

have you ever tried to really understand my feeling?? how much you hurt me and yet i always keep in silence... not telling you just don't wish you to feel sad or pity me or even think i'm trying to act kelian...

maybe i'm not that IMPT anymore... or maybe it just a matter of time!!!

i just wish to be alone right now...

try it out!!! it fun...

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