My new hair color "but it fade ler"
On my way to orchard XP

Total both of us spent $400 @ STORM

@MU during dear Bday
Present i got for dear (NICE?)

X..<

Today i feel so sad so sad..have the urge to tender..but ling, lian n elva say alot of thing tt make me stop feel tt way..sorry for not telling u all the true..but i dun think there's a point saying bout it..no changes will b done de..tt's life..

Morning i drop a tear, afternoon lian cry..oh gosh..

Anyway i said something which i shouldn't say at all rite from the start..how how how????i should bear the consequence..

Really hate this world more n more..mayb tt why the world is ending soon for human..

Had a super terrible nightmare..i had once b4 when i was in sec sch..was jus too scary till i can't even slp at all..tks to dear came all the way down jus to acc me slp even when he's with high fever, cause he knew tt without anyone acc i can't get to slp..while after he left..mom came acc me when i woke up in the middle of the nite..

I just to love..there's 2 guy i love the most..1 i have left him for freedom & wana learn to b independent as he dote me too much till i can't stand on own..another is the 1 rite beside me now..but if u were to compare which is more impt to me i can't tell..i really don have the ans for myself..really feel very sad..if i haven gif up tt time i were have get marry with him ler..we jus planned n done too many things..i knw i hurt him too much..i'm really sorry..i was very sad too..but i swear to myself before no matter what i do i will never regret..

Still thinking whether tonite sld go zouk anot leh..mayb it time to let myself relax & enjoy like what i used to be..but i feel like sleeping..yawn zzzzzzzzzz..

What is true love?

Is always what we say bout loving someone without any reason and love the person with whole hearted?but yet can after broke up not long and got someone else with doin the same thing with the previous partner with totally the same care & concern and mayb even the same sweet talk..can't ppl react differently with different ppl?it make me feel tt sometime when ppl told me hw much they love or what make me feel suck..really suck..i don't believe what i love u forever and no1 can replace u..bull shit..there's only committment in a relationship..love will fade away when time goes by..When think back bout hw much sweet talk & even who they hate but in the end still can be with the person..why so fake??Not tt i'm evil..is tt every human born wit a angel & evil heart..jus tt the evil usually come out more..as everyone just care for themselves more than anyone else..Whenever i see them i see erxin..

Anyway remember not to go Cineleisure there the hongkong resturant like a coffee shop to eat..poor service, lousy food and it ex..me n dear only order a plate of meat rice, 2 boiled egg, frence toast, barley and 1 ice water even charge me 40cents..but tt not the worse..they din even bother to gif me to ice water still dare to charge me..in the end spent total of $17plus over those shit..nia will nv ever go tt place to eat again..rather go on diet..

Just came back frm ktv again..hee..this time i went with lian, elva n shirlene..order mc donald in..hee..kaoz..sing so much..but still abit shy..cause nv sing infront of other ppl b4..unless ling, dear and qiang they all..hmm..but i still enjoy myself...

Feeling SAD

Still feel sad for quarrelling with dear.reali wish ytd can go blade wit him..cause of me he din go..

Had a super weird dream..dream of something which was jus so weird..but make me feel xinfu yet difficult to make the decision..I'm wondering did i reali make a wrong move??

Nv slp well lol..ytd reali haf a great tok wit dear..watched 'Ghost Game' @ 4.10am..walau..while on the way back home i fall asleep again..i nt on purposely de..

Sometime i jus wonder what i reali wan..

Super duper tired

This few days so many thing happen..

1. Rush down to marina to watch fire cracker..haf kenny roger for dinner..thot after the dinner can haf our romantic nite..shit..by the time we come out it jus ended..-_-"

2. Went for KTV again..hahah..crazy liao la..even make the VIP card..gee..think will go more often liao.

3. After work go noble resturant with manager & those MS ppl..so much fun..sing song again..manage to force the manager to sing song too..so cute..boss gif elva & me a ride to cine..dear was already there waiting for me ler..din knw he hurt his leg..had a little tiff wit him but lucky in the end everything was fine again.

4. Early in the morning when to bank & haf my new platinum capital card done.

5. Went to lavender there to get my passport photo update..but but duno y today they done service anything for passport..sian

6. After dear acc to here n there when to his for him to bath..while goin to go east coast park n meet up wit ling to roller blade we have a big quarrel..since so long we din quarrel until so jialat liao..then we both go our own way.

7. Took cab down..kind of ex cause it jam..waste money leh..had a great time blading..wana go blade every weekend..hee.

8. Went raffles sushi tei for dinner..brought alittle stuff for dear..and meet up with someone who long time nv saw ler.

9. Now at home..waiting for dear to come fetch me n go cine watch movie..i'm very tired liao..but wana talk thing out wit him while we goin for the movie..hee

Oh ya below r my wish list:

1. Gucci bag "dear will b getting it for me..hee"

2. Gucci card holder "had too much card liao"

3. A new adidas jacket

4. Nice Roller Blade "my old one abit too old ler"

5. Papillio Sandals

6. Vic Secret Moist

7. Levi's jean

8. Sling bag

9. More cloth

10. My driving licence

Eh i think there's alittle too much for my wish list..hee..argh i'm over spending..but honestly i really din buy thing ler..trust me..but dear n ling knw i'm saving liao..

Where did my brain gone?

Recently have being so so blur..wonder where's my brain??did any1 steal it?

Some incident on hw blur i'm..

1. Went check up with dear, on our way to pay bill. Dear asked my ATM leh..erm..I told him i left at home.

2. Rushing to CWP meet up with qiang they all..No more cash left..so after we reach cwp when it goin to b our turn, yap bring the wrong wallet out..so rush home n come out again.

3. Never will be able to concentrate what ppl talking bout or what i'm doin..will only reply when few days later then will mention.

4. Did a super big mistake in work today.

Walau i can't stand myself anymore..My friend say mayb due to stress..but dear always say i got stress de meh..only giving myself stress which i did not hor..

Last sat when cine watch 'TOKYO DRIFT' super nice lor..hee..dear brought me a eeyore and slipper

Ytd when orchard shopping with dear..he brought 6 top..while i only got 2 top 1 lacy hair band n a pouch.

Dear start his new job today..wonder how it goes..told him won't be meeting him everyday anymore..both of us need more slp..hee..meet too often isn't a good thing either..hee

Anyway i feel sick liao..goin to die soon..

Recently have been so happy yet tired

Mon nite remember the previous blog saying gona celebrate dear bday, yeah it a very successful one..have so much fun..dear kana sabo then what revenge on me huh??naughty leh..

Tue his actual bday..quarrel..hmm my fault..nt in very good mood leh..after tt then ok..when for sakae sushi after tt watch dragon tiger gate..indeed a very nice good..

Wed meet up with coco..she look really sad..hope she will stand up soon..waiting for u to be back like wat u used to be..

Thurs plan to go watch movie again but but but i wana watch channel 8 'ai qin ling du c'..but b4 tt when for sakae sushi wit ling, have a sakae sushi card done..and had galera ice-cream..see tt y i keep on getting fat..

Fri mum bring me, dear and my sis for dinner..after tt dear when home for bath..when orchard with dear, ling, qiang, hong, hao n hao coming to be gf to ktv..yawnnn..so tired..had a bad stomach ache too..lian n elva tender ler..so sad..sob sob

Sat when to JP 'Storm' for my scalp treatment total spent a $142 on nth much..but my scalp feel healty nw..haiz..dear gif me $100 i jus spent it on my hair..later goin orchard..hee..yeah yeah